Fight regardless

And if death will be  better than pain, choose it. Why does this sound like a better idea.  Why pain when you can just rest for ever. Crazy right.  Pause. I aint suicidal.  High thought . Its like having to choose to pass through fire to get to the goal rather than just taking whats yours and learning to be content.  Well, we keep fighting our emotions, our feelings and accepting other to tread on us in the name of we are fighting for a better future. Shit thats cold . 
Are the struggles realy worth it?  I know they are worth when you know your purpose, but when you dont know . Too expensive , costing your mental health, no time for rest because you are chasing blindly, and foolishly.
You can tell that man is going through . Bet you wanna know . Eeehh . Sometimes it is great but still dark times surpass. Funny how you can be smiling at a thousand positive feedbacks but our brain will magnify the one negative thought and you know end your mood fucked up !   
Whatever mehn !   
I have learnt though that with constant building of my relationship with my creator that well whatever you believe works . Because I have been having my own personal amusement of how his grace is sufficient and that when you are alligned with the higher power , there is no struggle in the heart . Mastering my mind is what is getting a little heavy and well power of manifesting, confessing, I mean saying it loud. It is build within before it is without.
Alas . I got this scripture well understood. Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change the courage to change the ones I can and the wisdom to know the difference . This is life.  
Also . Nothing is new under the sun . 

Yeah you can tell I need to vent . I am gonna start that pod soon. 

LOVE FOLKS 
TUSHEE

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